The other day, Avery was snuggling up to me and told me how beautiful I was. I felt so loved and appreciated her sincere compliment UNTIL
I caught a glance in the mirror later that day.
My hair had not been brushed at all in at least an entire day and was thrown up in a crazy looking hairdo.
I had not had a shower in days and really smelled not feminine, my face was dry, my skin broken out with acne here and there, I saw wirey gray hairs here and there not obeying the pattern of my pony tail, my clothes were tshirt and sweats... I just looked so horrible.
I am not saying this to come across in some backwards vain way - what struck me was that she was seeing something completely different than what I was seeing.
My mind has been so tainted by the media, the actresses, the magazine covers, the ideal girl and woman photos. My mind has also been so tainted with my negative issues about myself.
Her mind is capable of seeing the beauty in who I am, how I am acting, God in me.
Believe me when I tell you, I am NOT a saint and I most certaintly do not deserve her sweet comment all the time, but for whatever reason she saw my inner beauty - the beauty of Christ in me, and when I saw my physical self in the mirror later, I couldn't help but feel a bit puffed up that I had Christ in me -
because there was no other way she could say "Mom, you are beautiful."
Scripture says, "Though outwardly we are wasting away, inwardly we are being renewed day by day...." Pretty cool.
Written 02/15/2010
I caught a glance in the mirror later that day.
My hair had not been brushed at all in at least an entire day and was thrown up in a crazy looking hairdo.
I had not had a shower in days and really smelled not feminine, my face was dry, my skin broken out with acne here and there, I saw wirey gray hairs here and there not obeying the pattern of my pony tail, my clothes were tshirt and sweats... I just looked so horrible.
I am not saying this to come across in some backwards vain way - what struck me was that she was seeing something completely different than what I was seeing.
My mind has been so tainted by the media, the actresses, the magazine covers, the ideal girl and woman photos. My mind has also been so tainted with my negative issues about myself.
Her mind is capable of seeing the beauty in who I am, how I am acting, God in me.
Believe me when I tell you, I am NOT a saint and I most certaintly do not deserve her sweet comment all the time, but for whatever reason she saw my inner beauty - the beauty of Christ in me, and when I saw my physical self in the mirror later, I couldn't help but feel a bit puffed up that I had Christ in me -
because there was no other way she could say "Mom, you are beautiful."
Scripture says, "Though outwardly we are wasting away, inwardly we are being renewed day by day...." Pretty cool.
Written 02/15/2010
One of my favorite verses! Wish we could all see ourselves and others like that. What a different world this would be.
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