Testimonies & Thoughts

Yesterday, was our four year anniversary since my husband's "accident". He was on his bicycle (road-bike) taking his routine route (for exercise and sport). He was found lying on the road behind a "parked" delivery truck. He was care-flighted to the hospital - and diagnosed a C5 Quadriplegic. (He broke his face bones, neck, and had compression fractures in his back.) Our whole life drastically changed course on July 15, 2009 around 6:20pm.  My whole world seemed to instantaneously shatter.  Pieces everywhere. Four years later, there are still pieces waiting to be placed.  While a new picture of our life has been taking shape, there are still sharp edges and broken slithers scattered about in my mind. Aside from going back to pack our suitcases, we never went back to our home. Our income, careers, businesses were instantaneously shut down. Family members I believed sincerely loved and cared about us - no more available "Close" friends ...

When should a Christian woman get a divorce and/or walk away from her husband?   Just telling it like it is.   Someone needs to.   I wish someone would say these things to me on the days I am really struggling and not refer me to a counselor, or not say they don’t know what to say.   Just point me to Jesus, to God, to the Bible, and to Truth.   So, here’s the reminder I wish I had, so many times, for you.   Read it as often as you need, and pass it forward when you have a friend who needs to hear the truth about her situation (and possibly having her pity party over how bad her marriage is). I’m thinking of all my sisters out there, who like me, struggle from time to time with their marriages.    Who may wake up in the morning and give it “one more good shot”, only to put their head on their pillow at night in complete emptiness and depleted hope.   Who some days get so full of rage and anger, say a...

Over the last few weeks, I have had conversations with various people about our current situation (how difficult it is to manage all that has been thrown into my life after my husband's spinal cord injury July 15 th ). Two people finished my sentence with "like this is not what you signed up for." They were trying to empathize, so I do appreciate their listening ear and sentiment, but this phrase has been just replaying in my spirit with such uneasiness. This morning, at 3 am, I finally woke up with it needing to get out, so here it is! I DID sign up for this. When I accepted Christ as my Savior and committed my life to His will, I signed up for this. When I accepted Scott as my husband, who is also a follower of Christ, I signed up for this. I signed up to be vulnerable, available, and committed no matter what obstacles would come my way. I signed up to be a servant, for Christ and my husband. Now, maybe I do not like the circumstances, but to give myself the thou...